Wednesday, May 14, 2014

This is the Midnight Hour


This is the Midnight Hour 5.17 am 14/05/2014

My dream started out as weirdly as dreams often do. I dreamt that it was an episode of Greys Anatomy, and it was the End of the World. Not as we know it, not ‘someone’s’, but the end. And just as happens in dreams, I suddenly realised I was in it. We all knew it was the end of the world, I was the one stuck hiding in a little room with Izzy Stevens and George O’Malley - it was almost MIdnight and we were scared out of our minds ecause it was the end of the world, and others were already gone and there was nothing we could do about it and we were powerless against it, just watching the rain-stained window coming at us from the backest darkest night outside, huddled in a darkened little bunker room we were sharing and it WAS the end of the world.
Then, I was seeing Dr. Christina Yang hovering over Izzy Stevens - she had just been checking another patient and she realises Izzy is dead, she checks pulse and everything, but she’s gone, and she can’t believe it because she was healthy, there was no reason for her to have died. But it’s the end of the world. She just....left.
And suddenly I am watching the scene and I realise that life is something of the dream. This is the Midnight Hour! And I am just as suddenly in a room with my Dad, and he’s sitting in a chair, I am now with my parents in this building in this strange dream, and yet still I know it’s the Midnight Hour, the End of the World, it’s close to the end of the world for everyone, but I know that tonight at Midnight, He is coming for me - and what do I do? Do I become frantic? Melt in a puddle of fear? What do I do?
Thoughts start racing through my mind: My time is near and there’s not much of it left because I am leaving at Mdnight, when He comes for me - but there’s still time for others, not all of us are leaving at Midnight, some have a bit longer and there’s still time, for what you say? For this - My Last Will & Testament.
And what do you think I write? To whom do I bequeath my most precious possessions? And what, indeed, do I prize the most, at the most imminent of moments?
I scramble around my desk of papers, ripping at my precious work log books where I keep information on clients, payments and prospects, the books which, in life, I seem to depend on, that I go through almost everyday adding potential money and past payments and praying for more, and it all means nothing - I rip through them all just looking for a clean sheet on which to write - Im desperate now because I am in the Final Hour and He is coming for me and I need to do this for Him before He comes and I must go - something I can only do while yet I breathe -
I scribble frantically at the top of a page in capitals: My Last Will & Testament and I write:
He is alive. God is real. He is alive, don’t be fooled. Don’t miss out on the chance to know Him. It’s the Midnight Hour but there’s still time for you. He is coming, but there’s still time. But it’s the Midnight Hour so don’t waste it. He is coming for me, but He is coming for you too, so get to know Him, give Him your life, there is so little time left. God is real, God is alive and He is coming soon. Get your life a-right with Him.
This is my legacy, this is my hope, this is my dream - this is all I have to give you. Nothing else matters or is of any worth. HE IS ALIVE - don’t miss Him! Please don’t miss Him!
I’m frantically writing this and look up at my Dad and feeling my time is going to be up before I even finish writing all that I must write and I joke with him that it always seems that I am doing things at the last minute and running out of time because my time’s almost up!
Then I awake. For real this time.
And I’m lying here in bed trying to work through my dream - where it started and it where it ended yet one thing remains clear to me - this is the Midnight Hour - the time of reckoning when the things we truly value are coming to the fore - and those of us who are here and those of us who are going - and who know what everyone is supposed to know - that Jesus lives, our day of reckoning is coming too and we have a legacy and a promise to keep to the One who called us back and has sent us out.
And suddenly I could’nt sleep anymore. I knew I had to write it down. Because People - this is the Midnight Hour and there’s not much more time left, and not that many tomorrows in which to hope we will eventually do the right thing.
I havent said it is going to be easy. I am simply saying it must be done. His will be done.
“ For the hour is coming and has now come - when the true worshippers will worship the Father in spirit and in truth; for the Father is seeking such to worship Him.”
John 4:23

Monday, October 8, 2012

Higher Hope

Hope. Everyday we seek a higher hope. Seek something more from our existence, something that will extend us beyond our limitations, beyond the boundaries and fences we sense around us. Isn't there supposed to more to our often tawdry existence? Oh I believe there is! There must be! Just to live on a higher plane, breathe a purer, deeper breath than before. Longing for that oft longed-for realization of a dream - but what dream is this? To have truly lived!

Oh to rise up to my Full Height!
Oh to shout out in my True Voice!
Oh to sing my Truest Song -
And to draw my Truest Breath!
To have the deepest melody that is my soul resound
RESOUND, LOUD, PROUD -
UNINHIBITED - TO RESOUND
and let this life that beats so strong in me
really truly abound in this life and the next

To shout my Truest Shout
To sing my Truest Song
To Leap, to Scale those Mountains
To Laugh that belly-deep, soul-depth, heart-full, every-bit-of-me-rich True Laugh
that will shake the very Earth and cause the Heavens to weep!

Oh To Live! To Truly Live and make of this mere second of a second that is my moment in time -
to make of it the sweet melody of me!




Psalm 121:
"I lift up my eyes to the hills - where does my help come from?
My help comes from the LORD, the maker of heaven and earth.

He won't let my foot slip; He who watches over me will not slumber;
Indeed, He who watches over Israel will neither slumber nor sleep.

The LORD watches over me, He is my shade at my right hand;
The sun will mot harm me by day, nor the moon by night.

The LORD will keep me from all harm, He will watch over my life;
The LORD will watch over my coming and my going, both now and forever more."

Friday, June 22, 2012

The Last Laugh

I should be dead right now.

In fact, I should have died at birth. I was born with my umbilical cord wrapped round my neck, not once, but twice people. The doctor told my mum afterwards that he had never in all the years he had been delivering babies, seen a case where both mother and child survived; either one would die and the other live or else both would die. And that's why they named me Chiratidzo. It means miracle, or as my Dad gave it to me, "the manifestation of the glory of God."

At the age of 7 or 8, like many a small person has done, I was trying to impress my Dad with how fast I could run. I dashed from the car, ran to collect my forgotten blazer in the school yard, and raced back as fast as my little legs could carry me. There was a road in front of the school, down which all manner of vehicles used to pass all day long. That day it was a bus. A big speeding bus that was driving towards the school gate, and my Dad was parked on one side of the road. The wrong side. All I remember is seeing his horrified face sitting in the car, powerless to save me, powerless to stop me. I never even heard the bus; didn't even see it. I just remember racing to the very edge - and I stopped. I could have kissed the side of that bus - it was that close. But the Hand of the Lord stayed my feet that day. I should be dead right now. But I'm not.

Whenever I feel depressed or purposeless, and believe me, I have my days, I remind myself, "You woke up today. Somebody else somewhere else didn't. But you woke up Chi. God loves you and He has a plan for you." And I hold fast to the confession of my faith. I must hold fast. I can't quit believing because the alternative just doesn't work for me.

And what is the alternative? Choosing to believe, like so many others, that there is no sense to life, no greater meaning than to live and to die? Accepting, like so many people, the lie that I have no purpose, that my faith is just a...temporary salve, an - imaginative, elaborately constructed mode of self-deception, that I have created to protect myself from the ugliness of the world; that God is no more than a "force", an "energy" - not the loving Father and Friend that I have come to know and love - who moves on my behalf?

No.

I choose Hope. I choose Faith. I choose Promise. I choose to Believe.

I KNOW the plans that God has for me. His plans are to prosper me and not to harm me, to give me a Hope and a Future. I call upon Him and He ANSWERS me. His eyes are ever on me and His ears are attentive to my cry. The arm of the Lord is not too short to save nor His ear too dull to hear. If you've never read the Bible before, you just did. All of that is scripture.

I have found love and I have found peace. I am alive today, hallelujah! and I believe in me!

This is My Faith Declaration.


I live to give God the glory
through my life, He's my story
To live is Christ and to die is gain
of the gospel of Christ I will never be ashamed
Whether to woman or man
I speak because I can
and because I know who's Lord
I choose to always stand on His Word
Not by power nor by might shall it be,
But by His Spirit and joy that strengthen me.
"Jesus is King - Glory to God!" I'll shout in the enemy's face:
For never will a rock cry out in my place!
I said, NEVER WILL A ROCK CRY OUT IN MY PLACE!
So listen here, and listen clear:
You don't define me - my Vindicator is near.
I am called by His word
sharper than any two-edged sword!
I'll not turn back, back down or give in!
I'm an overcomer from birth - greater is He who is within
Me, than he who is in the world.
For History shall record, one truth and one truth alone:
I'm created in His image, I'm not a devil-clone.

By Chiratidzo Chiweshe

Wednesday, May 2, 2012

Self-Portraits

Self-Portrait #001: The Fake Smile :-)

The Journey to Self

Make of my life a journey to Self;
Meet Self and look Self in the eye.
Remember Self today
so that 50 year-old Self will be able to say,
I met with yester-Self today, and yester-Self and morrow-Self are one in the same
'cept for one thing, the same
yester being what I was, morrow what I'll be
today what I am - yet all of them are me
Each day a journey to Self
My-Self
Better-Self
Hopeful-Self
Crazy-Self
UpsandDownsy-Self
But all of them me

by ChiChi [Wednesday 2 May 2012]